February 25, 2009 | Filed Under Uncategorized | 1 Comment
the water from the fountain flows like a river through the air
so much so that I can’t hold my glass to far away
for fear that the meandering will run to wide and
spill outside my glass
February 11, 2009 | Filed Under Uncategorized | 1 Comment
Leave the Board Out of this
November 19, 2008 | Filed Under quick thoughts | 2 Comments
I have been reading “The Confederacy of Dunces” in the bathroom stall at work, because that is the only time I really feel like reading it. You can read this and completely understand that John Kennedy Toole was not a happy person. No one in the book is happy. Everyone is put down by anyone and everyone at every part of the book. That was this guy. He couldn’t be a happy guy. I know nothing of Toole except that he killed himself and I don’t know how shortly after the book. But think of this guy, writing this book without wanting to publish it (as far as I know, maybe he tried and failed). What kind of person would write this just to write. I mean this guy is Ignatius. But he is a little bit of every character.
I see the humor that everyone else says is there, but I’m not enjoying as others have, it’s more annoying than anything. This book is a car wreck. It has the same beauty as a car wreck. Everyone looks at a car wreck because it is unbelievable. It’s hard to fathom that that much metal can be tossed around and bent and crushed. I might have a hard time comparing the two but I can’t put down this book just like I can’t stop looking a ta car wreck.
O.k. I’m gonna rephrase this. It’s not like looking at a car wreck that has already happened but a car wreck in progress. I need to see how this thing is gonna end. It was a collision at the very begining with how Ignatius is confronted by the Police Officer and how he treats his mother and how he looks down upon everyone as everyone looks down on him. Then I, the reader, can look down upon everyone in this book and only thank gOD that they are in a book and this is not the “never ending story” and I will not be joing these people into their car wreck. But goddamn if it doesn’t feel like the never ending story.
I just feel the need to finish this book. In hopes that there is somehow it could turn out good, but I know better than that.
I didn’t even have to use my AK
November 4, 2008 | Filed Under quick thoughts | 3 Comments
So far it has been a good morning. I stayed up a little late last night just reading, which I havn’t done in a while. I got good sleep. I woke up 30 minutes earlier than usual, got a good breakfast and rode my bike to work, which I havn’t done in quite a while. I also havn’t blogged in a while.
I don’t really have much to say about today other than it’s election day and once again my canidate of choice will not be picked because he would change up a lot of things. I’m gonna throw up a few quotes right now.
“Those who vote decide nothing, those who count the votes decide everything”
-Joseph Stalin
“If voting changed anything, it would be illegal.”
-Emma Goldman
Here’s a Thoreau quote I just ran across that I like
“All voting is a sort of gaming, like checkers, or backgammon, a playing with right and wrong; its obligation never exceeds that of expediency. Even voting for the right thing is doing nothing for it. A wise man will not leave the right to the mercy of chance, nor wish it to prevail through the power of the majority.”
I can’t believe anyone’s belief in voting still exists in this millinium.
many blood sucking parasites (ie politics)
October 3, 2008 | Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment
I came up with an analogy for politics last night that seems to grasp my opinion of government. Have you ever read one of those books where you get to “choose” what the main character does at the end of the chapter. Does he go through door A or door B? You think you’re getting involved in the book and making choices, but when you look at it, it has been written and no matter what the ending has been written and you’re just along for the ride, you don’t get to steer. That’s kinda how I view voting. The decisions have been made, they just ask our opinion to pacify those of us who think we actually get our turn at steering. I refuse to indulge in the fantasy that is politics. There is no change coming by voting. So long as the pen and dollar is given so much credit.
loopty loop
September 4, 2008 | Filed Under quick thoughts | Leave a Comment
Man sometimes I walk around and I just feel everyone is insane. It seems crazy to me that there could be this many people on the Earth all holding, basically, the same opinions. I’m not quite sure what that opinion is, but everyone seems to be “acting” on the same level. I’m guessing that everyone doesn’t want to be who they are but act the way they are so they can get a long in society. I really wish I could make form my thoughts into words a whole lot better than I do. I bet a lot of people wish that, then they wouldn’t be labeled crazy anymore.
down
August 27, 2008 | Filed Under quick thoughts | 1 Comment
All these moods, feelings, and what not are not me. Just like the weather is not the Earth, but merely a mode(?) of Earth. I don’t really want to use mode there. not subject, object. Aspect maybe? It flows through me. It comes from somewhere else. It really is like energy moving through me. Like a wave through an ocean. Except I can’t feel it moving through me, I just feel it in me, I just know it will soon be gone.
Who knows where it comes from? I’m glad that it never stays. I wonder where it comes from for people who are depressed all the time. Is it really a chemical imbalance? I think there are other ways to cure these things other than drugs. It is energy and we know nothing of our life source. There is more to life than our bodies and minds. Curing the body or mind should not take away from other parts of our lives.
Doctors give these people drugs. I don’t think to really cure them, but it seems more to make these people less annoying to the others they have to be around. I’m guessing there are families out there who would prefer a member of their family doped up rather than depressed.
I’ll take neither Alex. I’ll take door C. Let’s actually help these people and not push them aside.
Crap,
I don’t know how. Sorry.
Swim fuckers Swim
o.k. sorry
August 13, 2008 | Filed Under quick thoughts | 1 Comment
I have had time to calm down now from my previous post. I read a post pop posted. It made me think that I am wrong to get that angry. It does me no good to get that angry because then I can not control anything. Well I guess I could control my fingers to write the post. I should not get so mad at my fellow human beings, I may need to rely on them one day. I shouldn’t be mad at that guy for almost hitting me with his car, I should be happy with myself for being able to foresee the possibility of being hit and to avoid it. I shouldn’t say that some souls do not have a right to occupy the physical realm as humans. I’m just frustrated along with the majority of the human race. We are all angry and looking to take it out on the other. We are all upset that we are in this world and sugjected to means we did not choose. We did not choose to have high oil prices, we did not choose to be addicted to anything that can help us escape the boring meaningless lives most of us lead. Actually we do choose it because we have trouble thinking of an alternative. First and formost, FUCK TV. There is nothing good on TV that we cannot supply ourselves in our towns. What do people watch on TV: shows, sports, news, movies. Could we not come together as a community, here in West Texas and supply entertainment for everyone. Do we not have enough technology to live without the rest of the Nation. We can grow our own food. We don’t need the Dallas Cowboys, La Lakers, NY Yakees. I know each town has enough decent atheletes for us to watch and enjoy. We don’t need to pay these Professional Athelets millions of dollars so they can be idiots. We can watch our neighbors play and create our own local organized sports. We have enough local music to entertain everybody and we have people willing to put on plays for us. We don’t need Brad Pitts and Angalinie Joline. And we sure as hell do not need these useless jobs we have.
This was really just a rant that I was feeling wrong about my previous post. I will get nothing in life with that much anger.
sorry.
science and religion
August 13, 2008 | Filed Under Gear-grinding, g'mornin' | Leave a Comment
I have a rant this morning. All dipshits and scumbags should be wiped off the face of the Earth. They shouldn’t even have the right to be human. Circumstances have worked out in their favor so they could be human. This is just a theory of course, I don’t plan to follow any of this through. But say reincarnation is true, that the hindu caste system is true. it’s my theory that all these people who can’t act human, were never meant to be human. It’s just that the human population is so big that a soul that was meant to be a dog got upgraded to human stature just due to the fact we have too many humans. SOOOOO,
Bring on the goddamn rapture. I’ll pay my part if it cleans up this Earth. We need to learn the Art of keeping this Earth properly populated. I mean don’t you hate it when you see someone who isn’t fit for a managerical position, hold that position. Same thing with today. All these Class-A yoyo’s out here occupying our space and breathing our air, do not deserve to be human, they should be dog’s. But once again due to the Bureaucracy of the Universe they get upgraded. It isn’t right.
Now I’ll admit there’s the possibility that I shouldn’t even be allowed to be human, writing a rant like this and all. But who gives a goddamn.
What’s worse than these souls getting to occupy the physical world in human form? What’s worse is that we give them goddamn driver licenses. We let them get into control of 1-2-3 ton vehicles. Hell, we vote them into Office. While we, those who are not idiots, must keep on our toes every day to stay clear of these morons.
This Armageddon that religion speaks of. I think it is science. I think that they (the ancients) knew something and they probably wrote it down very clearly what is to happen, but those who want to be in control (unjustifiable humans) have cleared it out of all texts. Not completely but enough to keep most people scared. The ancients who predicted the “end of the earth” probably never worded as “the end of the earth”. And it is no more of a prediction than us predicting a hurricane will hit north america in the summe. It’s probably along the same scale. Every so often cosmic years our solar system moves through a turbulent area of the galaxy. And it won’t be a moment too soon, because the Human Race needs to be tested to see if it is worthy enough of making the next evolutionary jump.
I have no clue where this is headed.
It started with my bike ride to work this morning. I was riding on the right side of the road. As a car passed me on the left I was meaning to take the immediate next left. I stuck out my arm to signal I was turning left and even got into the center of the road. But not that this friggin’ idiot noticed or cared. He was posed to turn left from the road I was turning on to and proceeded to turn even though I had properly signaled and was making my turn. I had to swerve back into my road to avoid getting hit and then he gives me the look, like I’m the asshole.
So, all of a sudden it dawned on me that he wasn’t an asshole, he just doesn’t deserve to be human. He should be a dog, or a pig, or a vegetable.
And so by almost getting hit this morning I realized reincarnation is true but that there are too many humans and not enough justified souls to fill them, so shit souls have to fill in the gap.
The Sinclair Jungle
July 21, 2008 | Filed Under Gear-grinding, quick thoughts | 2 Comments
I just finished “The Jungle” by Upton Sinclair. I learned in history class and was told by others that it was a book that revolutionized the meat packing industry of America. I bought the uncensored version. When I started reading it, I was wondering what 5 chapters did they cut out. By the end it was very clear what chapters they cut out. I just researched what chapters to reinforce my beliefs. http://www.seesharppress.com/jungle.html
I think this book scared the commercial publishers. Originally written, it was not a book about the horrors of the meat packing industry. It was about the horrors of the elite in America. It was a book on the Class War that only the rich know about. It was a book on Socialism. And it was good. But the socialist publishers could not publish it due to lack of money. And eventually he had to give in and edit his book and make the cuts and cancellations they (the editors at Macmillan) wanted. They turned it into a book about the meatpacking industry and how dirty it was.
It looks like it was war inside the system. And this was one battle the Capitalists could never fully win and they had to give the people somebody. And that somebody was the meat packers. If they gave us them, then we would be pacified for a little bit longer. Would it even be possible to rewrite and updated version of The Jungle. The Jungle of today. The area in our lives that is killed or be killed. Sink, swim, or use other people as your life raft. Can someone write an uplifting tale of a character finally seeing through the bullshit and how all of our daily routines just show how we are prisoners. But we are even lower than prisoners because we PAY for our cells. But there is one thing that all the books that do talk about government keeping us down and behind lock, key, and camera have in common. The main character never wins. The main character only learns of the battle but is always put down. Arrested, commits suicide, or gets a bullet in the head after being brain washed that 2+2=5.
I think I’ll end there.